2023/12/02 11:02
Hi Eric,
I’ve finished my thesis proposal, last night, roughly and carelessly. I don’t want to read those papers just for meeting the quantity requirement of 15 papers, which is too tired; I want to let myself be comfortable. Luckily, I found a paper discussed about “phenomenology” and “sense of place”, the only one that I can find. Nevermind, I think it is a good start for my winter reading of phenomenology. This morning, I sorted out my written proposal and the presentation, I always present without script, due to my laziness…
I finally realized that, I have to do more stuffs about myself, just like he likes travelling. I can share my life with him, spend time with him, but I cannot rely on him, sensitive to whatever he does and says. Hope he is the guy who is slow to get familiar with and will stick to one person for a long time, then waiting is worthy. (I know I have many grammer mistakes, I just think English is better for me to express, though I use simple words, I don’t know why, I just like English, it’s correct, specific most of time) If he dosen’t like me, it’s okay, I will not mind that time was wasted for him, maybe I like this suffering… and I can comfort myself with that he is not as good as I am academically, and not rich, not tall… About my love brain, I can talk a lot. My friend (classmate) she express her need for sex to me a lot. She is calm in love and I think she is good at manage emotion and treat partner relationship. She told me that he already cares me a lot, it is me that acquire too much emotional demands. Yeah, she is right.
I read your novel, excellent writing. I feel elements of magic (魔幻現實). and; I read it as I am listening to your description of a dream. It’s short, many it is the limitation of word (short time of reading) and also the strength of word (space for imagination). It just strucks me that, a film or video is a better interpretation. The wedding and later life with the woman is meant to be. The concert might only be the illusion. Or it is totally a dream, and the man will wake up to be in the concert in time that day. I want to write novel too, use a little imagination. I have to write.
Today, I have a lot tasks to do, I like life with full of schedules (set by myself). Anything to share can be on Whatsapp or telegram.
Your friend,
Augustine